It's been awhile

After starting a new blog, the vows to be better, this is what happens!
I guess I have a hard time staying on track, especially with something I expected to be a 9-12 month thing. We have been waiting for over 3 years now! Lets face it, life gets in the way sometimes!
So- whats new? I have been busy busy!! I don't know how I will do all this next year with a little one in tow! I didn't even read my last post, so not sure where to start.
We went to Disney in November, had a great time!! Ivy loved every minute of it. She turned 9 in December. When we started this second baby process she was 3! Where does the time go? Next week we are going to the Bahamas. Yeah- I'm ready to get away. You would not believe how many "last" vacations we have taken! It's always the last one before the baby...... but the baby never comes!
Baby- I honestly think we are getting close!! CCAA has referred through March 8, of 2006. 13 days until our LID. See- we really are close. I'm guessing we will recieve our referral at the end of June/beginning of July. I hope we can get travel in before Ivy starts school in the fall. It looks possible, but will be close. As we inch our way to the front of this long line I'm finding myself getting panicky! I'm worrying about everything from the food we will eat in China, to attatchment issues. The rooms not ready, I haven't bought a thing, the house isn't baby proofed! Am I going to be able to take of a baby again? I'm scared, but I'm ready. Things have just become so easy around here.
A couple weeks ago I baby sat for a friend. The poor baby cried a hour straight. The minute his mom took him he was fine. He hated me, I believe my baby will hate me at first too! That scares me!
Well now that I've worked myself into panic mode, I'm stopping for today! Hopefully you will hea from me before our referral. but- I'm not making any promises.